I’m dating myself for a while
Before I feel ready to date other humans
I dress for how I want to feel
Cool powerful playful sexy free
It was everything everywhere
All at once
I laughed out loud
More than twice
Piercing the contemplative silence
Seen
By some bold invisible soul traveler
Ideas articulated in perfectly ordered chaos
Communicating through screen
Color light space and time
Silent tears in buttered popcorn
Salty pinot noir lips quivering
It was exquisite
About people
Playing their roles
Ignoring instigating possessing lying numbing
Pressuring attacking hiding controlling hurting
Doing what hurting people do
Utterly uncontrollable
Utterly lovable
About breaking out of roles
Shedding expectation
Loosing the grip
Opening eyes
Hearts
Bodies
This body
This moment
Choosing what to do next
The greatest honor of the living
Growing
Deepening
Softening
Hardening
Stretching
Showing ourselves that we are trustworthy
That we will have our back
That we contain multitudes
That there are those we’ll find and choose eternally
That maybe we’ve always been
Everything everywhere all at once
Jaclyn Edds Konczal | April 2022